Soul -- reflexion

I fall down on my knees and began to cry…
For I never wanted to leave your side…
All alone with no one aside…
Now I walk this lonely path of my life …
I am missing you… had a lot of things to do…
But I can’t move on…move on my life…

Each morning the sun rises and the birds began to chirp…
They took me in, slowly in those blissful days….
Just the thought of you makes me smile…
I find you there every night and day,
A mom like you is very rare…
I am missing you…
How I will move on…move on in life

I don’t know how much I love you…
As for me it’s a feeling…A feeling
I get everytime I look into your eyes…
I think about you…feeling for your eternal unconditional love
I know sooner you will be here to wipe down my tears…
….to frighten away my fears !!!
I am missing you…
But have to move on…move on my life

Lying here alone, I have come to realize…
I require your care, care in life…
I want you beside me in my life…
I need your love, each moment in time…
One thing I have to say….I love you a lot…
Yeah I will move on…move on for your love
…..Move on for your love……..

Everyone falls in love with someone…somehow

I see you, beside me ….It’s only a dream
A hallucination of what used to be…
The moments, the fun and those glorious times
I don’t know why, it’s not fading with time???

I‘ve been spending some time, thinking I’d be alright
I try to run away from your sight, but each place I hide
It only reminds me of you….
I never thought that our love would die, but one day these tears will dry
I know I won’t have to cry…. I know I won’t have to cry

You know everytime I hurt you…it hurt me too
Then why don't you felt the pinch??
I know someday when the blood from my heart…rushes to brain
It wouldn’t be you…It wouldn’t be you
You know one day I will forget you, you will see
I wouldn’t even miss you…

I know someday you‘ll realize…you’ll see through my eyes
But then I won’t be there…I will be happy somewhere
I know someday someone will love me…the way I need you
One day someone will take your place…I won’t even miss you
I wouldn’t even miss you…

A new life -->Re-birth ( 03-SEP-2008)

Friend's mai MAMA ban gaya...And this one is for the first kid of my family :-)

A little reason in my life
Gave me a reason to smile....

A new life on my lap....
His eyes are small, beaming cherubic face
His groping hands, sucking mouth...
Expectant of love warmth and embrace

Look at him, he is just like me
10 little fingers, 10 little toes
with the arrival of yours ....our family grows

A little reason in my life...
Gave me a reason to smile

I know he is an angel sent by God.
His cries of joy brings fresh breathe of air
I am finally glad he is here
I know his eyes looks for me
When he kicks in air his stubby feet....

An extra light he has brought to my life
He has changed my world as a whole
I know he will make me stronger.....
A new Zest of living......that you gave me little one....

I know God wanted something special to be done....
That's why they have sent the angel for me
He is an inspiration of joy in my life
Yeah he is the reason to smile (in my life).

God….Why I believe you --> An Agnostic view

Dear God,
Long time no see
Trust, you would be having fun

Last time I wrote to you my letter returned with a note error “Addressee not found”, but I know it was your writing on the note, hope this time you will acknowledge my epistle.

I know we are human, we do mistake…one or other place it is the same old tale.

Bombs-Bombs it is the news of the day…humans are playing HOLI and the color is RED… innocent children, woman and man, body in bloods strewed all over…they are son, daughter, father, mother of a kin…everywhere its a chaotic scene!!
I want to ask what human’s folly is…Do human only make mistake??

Water-Water in human’s den…every bulletin was flashing the same…They build their home with so more pleasure…All of a sudden its no more there...millions stranded under open sky...male-female do everything in open, people who are marooned cant even think of shame. No one reckon as people are dying…hapless world do not value for life!!
I want to ask what human’s folly is…Do human only make mistake??

Human fighting for a piece of land…heard this hostility is going on for decades…Innocent life is lying on ransom…they say only blood will make them blossom. Man is Man’s biggest enemy God’s world is full of cruelty!!
I want to ask what human’s folly is…Do human only make mistake??

No matter, What every philosopher says God created each one of us different…
Some born rich, some born poor...Some have home, some open sky…Some are happy...some are sad… Some take dope…others have no hope!!

If you are wrong you should come and accept it, Why we are different when you say we are same !!!!

When I was in Love...

Once upon a time it happened to me, the sweetest thing that could ever be. It was a fantasy, a dream come true. It was the day that I met her.....

--> Sometime back
When She walked in the Room,
I saw Her Face.
When she smiled at Me, I knew she was The One.
When she looked at me with her beautiful Eyes, I knew she was Feeling me.
When she Held my hand, I knew this wasn't a dream.
When I left that night, I said to myself Is this Love at First sight...

--> The same night
I reached my home, closed my eyes, She was there…..everywhere
Is there such a thing as love at first sight?
That's the question I asked myself
How is it possible to feel so much for a
Stranger, until I laid eyes on her ?
Love has no limits, no color, no time.
That's when I realized I had fallen in love -
Love at first sight.

--> Few Days later
I thought that a sudden feeling had united us
Without knowing, She had made a place in my heart
This certainty is beautiful,
Even more beautiful than uncertainty…
I know we don’t know each other
But there were signs, indications, undecipherable.
That someone wants us to be to-gether.

--> Present
I don’t know what the world thinks of me,
But I am too shy to say this to her
My heart it hurts, It hurts so much
I have never felt, So much pain as such
To make her stay, Or let her go
Without her in my life, I won’t be whole
How can I tell her that my love for her is true
Without the common “I love you”

--> Future
Waiting for her to take the next move…
As She know I am like this
Or Is She also waiting for me..to do it ??
Trust me I wanna make it sure
My love for you will always last
My Crazy Obsession With You is not for a time…
It’s forever….forever…forever :-)

365 days

I am so absolutely totally utterly in awe of this person that I always want to emulate his fashion, magnetism, easiness and attitude but deep there I am aware no matter what I do I cant even come closer being like him. I know…am head over heels in love with this man , there I said it he is one and only “Bhai” . This post is exactly for two reasons. One, precisely 365 days back he left Mumbai (and me), Secondly he is still away and I know as always I don’t show but somewhere I miss his presence…his absence is killing me.

Bhai Congratulations for completing one year in “Mövenpick”, he deserve all this success, and strangely for this particular stretch of his absence I have researched few things :

I don’t sleep in the living room and rather prefer bedroom.

I sleep at the edge of the bed but then I use to take more space.

I had a great difficulty sleeping with the never ending trumpeting sound of his cellphone from one or other of his friends, Now I have great difficulty in sleeping without them.

I have to put on the duvet every night when I am feeling cold but when he was here he use to put on the same for me.

I complained when he do not pick out my clothes for work. Now, I plan my outfits for every week!

I fight with him all the time for the song to be played . Now, I don’t even bother switching it on.

I miss the amusing weekend night’s..the fun and partying till wee hours in the morning and then there his leading words “Abhi nahi…Kha ke soyega”. Now no-one dares to say me the same.

I miss those days when I go out with friend and a single message of mine makes him apprehensive, whose text reads only these words “Bhai Pyaar ho gaya hai “. I do freak out but I know quite well..have to come back early as there is no one home.

I miss the true critic of mine who bullies me for not matching pace with my past and then his unbreakable belief in me..go on man you are the BEST. Now people are there but in a mask I don’t know who loves me who loves me not.

All of a sudden he has no flaws…I was always aware about this law….Thanks for his irrational, unbreakable belief in me...bordered on craziness at a few time. I know my relationship with him goes beyond the common gene we share and as always I need his irrational support for me.

All the best Bhai in the last few years I had a nice journey knowing you from being a brother to a friend :-)

Quandary....

I was listening while Prerna was talking to her husband on phone. Prerna is an office colleague…. bright, ambitious and articulate. She is a modern day woman who keeps everything before work..and believe that Husband and wife have an equal responsibility whether it is in rearing a child or earning a bread. That day while coming to work she noticed that her son was having high temperature. She gave him a Crocin tablet and told her Aaayii to take care of him…She called her Aaayii in noon to enquire about her son…while she was leaving for the day, her boss reminded her about the party due in the evening where they had to meet a business delegation and he wanted her to come along with him..She couldn’t resist it, as that meeting was important and as it goes a happy boss means a happy job!! Being a working lady has its own hassles, as she can not think about her home always if she has to climb the ladder of success. After all it is also fair that husband too has an equal responsibility of raising the child as the child is his also.

For a moment, this propelled me into the thought of one of my office colleague Prakash and his wife Neha. She had a decent job when Prakash married her and he wanted her to carry on with the job as he felt that she will get bore in the flat. Neha was also all eager and happy to go ahead with her profession but all her perspective changed abruptly when she became a mother. She insisted that she must quit the job so that she can be with the child all along, tending him, feeding him, playing with him, seeing him grow up. Here for once Prakash insisted that she can do all this without leaving the job..she would not relent..Do you want me to earn to run the household? Prakash..she was almost at the brink of crying…”No my dear I only want you to be engaged” he coaxed her…“Yes, I am engaged with my child and you must be happy with my decision”, she said with a finality in her voice.

Leaning back on my chair staring outside the glass window I am in quandary unable to find an answer to the contrasting view points of the two ladies on a rather similar point.